I feel great!
Did you know that if you get several nights of comfortable sleep, you wake up in an amazing mood?
Being in the business career, I work Monday through Friday, 9-5. So there’s not a lot of time to work on the house on weekdays. But the weekends are mine to improve the estate. I crack myself up when I use the word estate to describe this big empty hunk of land I call home. But I fully intend for this to be an estate one day.
This past weekend, I spent my morning expanding my garden.
I literally worked all day. I planted the new seeds, harvested the old plants, and watered and fertilized all the plants. I had never done so much manual labor in my life. Like seriously, when I was starting to smell myself, those green tendrils of hard work coming from my armpits, I almost gave up right then.
“A lady doesn’t sweat, we perspire,” was something my etiquette teacher always taught. If that class full of silver spoon, BAP, freshly manicured girls could see me now! Remembering that I fled from that world to come here and make a life for myself that I actually wanted to live gave me back my resolve. No one was making me expand my garden, I was doing this because I wanted to.
So I had a huge smile on my face when I finally walked into the house for a shower.
I think house is maybe too big a word for that building that houses my bed and bathroom. I won’t call it a house in public. But I’m calling it a house in this diary.
I’m so glad I decided to start this diary to chronicle my journey through this new life. There are big and small victories every day. Another small victory was getting slightly better at triangle pose. I’m telling you, if I ever do go home, I’m slapping my old personal trainer. She was nothing but a yes man who wasn’t actually invested in my fitness and wellness knowledge.
When the weekend was over, it was time to head back to work. A breakfast of granola and happy juice were perfect to send me on my way to my first day as Regional Manager.
My boss told me when I got my most recent promotion that no one had been promoted as quickly through the company as I was. I was flattered to hear that.
It made me think that maybe I could defy other expectations and reach all my lifetime goals. I left for work feeling confident and energized.
When I got home from work, I went for a jog. I feel tense if I don’t exercise regularly. Plus it helps me think. I thought about work and Khaled and my plans for the house and Khaled and maybe picking up a new hobby and Khaled.
I got back to the house and showered. While I was trying to decide what to do for dinner my phone buzzed.
I’m telling you, it’s like this man has a sixth sense for when he’s on my mind or I need an escape. I told him I’d happily join him. Ghosts don’t scare me, so I was down. I met him outside of a cool new bar. It was right next door to Hell’s Kitchen. I looked at the restaurant I still hadn’t tried longingly before turning to greet Khaled.
The bartender was cute, but he was overwhelmed by all the patrons ordering drinks.
I managed to grab glasses of nectar for me and Khaled, then we headed upstairs.
We did our friendly banter thing as we enjoyed our nectar. I’d been so worried about all the possibilities that might never happen, I’d forgotten how much I just genuinely enjoyed his company. Khaled was funny and sweet and always had interesting stories to tell about life in San Myshuno.
That was when it occurred to me that I was in love. I wasn’t just best friends with a guy who I had a romantic attraction to. I was head over heels. I wanted to have his babies. Whatever he was saying at that point was lost in the haze of me falling.
I felt a bit frozen. I didn’t know what to do. Everything I knew about life up to this point no longer applied. Was I really going to wait for him to ask me out and risk losing him to another woman who was a bit more forward? So I looked him dead in his face and told him I was into him. And I wanted to be more than just friends. At first he was shocked, then his face softened into a flattered smile.
I didn’t ask him out though. There’s only so much of a girl’s training she can break out of at a time. But I did tell him that the ball was now in his court and I’d be waiting to see what he would do with the information I’d just given him.